"I AM MY OWN STANDARD" MODELING SHOOTS WITH ZHIXIANG JERADAYAH

"Zhixiang Jeradayah is a man quite difficult to pin down, as he is our modern day polymath and renaissance man. He is a multi-instrumentalist, multidisciplinary visual artist, producer, composer, writer, a self taught biomedical engineer specializing in curing autoimmune diseases with neurotechnology and has recently started his own Fashion Blog. We're talking to our lovely polymath about his modeling shoots, clothes, his opinion about beauty standards, culture and what it's like to be neurodivergent."

"Zhixiang Jeradayah you seem to be dominating more scenes and domains as you develop as a person. We know you as a musician and self taught neuroengineer under your business 'AquarianGod', what made you think that you first wanted to start your own fashion blog and become a model?"

"Shallow reasons. Is it arrogant to say that people told me I looked like a model and i thought 'Okay why not give it a try?"

"No not at all. If you got it flaunt it!"

"Well then that's the honest truth."

"Do you feel pressure from fitting into some sort of beauty standard?"

"I used to. I used to be extremely fat as fuck.. Yeah I am blunt like that, I just used to be a fat fuck. That's when I thought I looked ugly and I wanted to change so I won't cringe when I looked at myself. In 2021 I went from 240lbs to 190lbs through, bluntly, just starving myself on water and run everyday. When I dropped to that weight everyone said I was a pretty guy. I have to say that if you're that fat, you can just not eat for months, eventually you're just going to burn your body fat as fuel... Ketosis. And when I got down to that weight I was all skinny no muscle and I got the most attention from people saying that I look like a model. That should already tell how toxic beauty standards have gotten. Majority of people equate 'anorexia' to being 'model worthy'.

When I was a kid I was bullied and wanted to look like a European white person because I thought it was racism. And looking back that was quite fucked up. I am not completely dark skinned, but you can see that I am ethnically mixed. I wanted to erase all of that to look like a white person so I wouldn't be bullied. So I guess I have been influenced by culture to believe that white skin, blonde hair, blue eyes was the best and the rest... not So there was a period in my life where I wanted plastic surgery." 

"Do you believe that European features like lighter skin, lighter eyes and lighter hair are seen as highly desirable by the majority of society?"

"That was the early 00s. Where the skinny punk rocker aesthetic was in. However since the introduction of The Kardashians in 2014 and their colonized, engineered ethnic features, everyone now wants big lips, high cheekbones, almond eyes, dark eyebrows, curlier hair, for women bigger boobs, tits, hips and ass. They want to have the features of a black woman but not the color of the skin that is pursecuted by a less melanated group on top of society.  It seems as if the races are battling the polar opposite to look like each other. White people steal black people features through lip fillers, BBL's, tan injections and breast augmentations. And Black people are bleaching their skin, wearing European looking wiggs, buy blonde wiggs, get nose jobs just in order to look white. Its kinda dystopian.

What we see now is that ethnically mixed folks are hyper sexualized and borderline fetishized due to online trends. Both parties glamorize, idealize and sexualize lightskin, ethnically mixed, ethnic featured folk. Because we look 'EXOTIC'.. Yikes I hate that word. Because they immediately dehumanize you to a porn category. EXOTIC. The Aryan race theory, where blue eyes, white skin and blonde hair,  is on its way out and white people feel as if they're a dying race, so they try to mix their genetics with black - melanated - Alkebulan descent folk to still have dominion of some sorts. That's what I feel. I sense a specific obsession from both parties to make mixed babies. I think ethnically mixed people will become the new standard of beauty. Unfortunately it first starts with a fetish and then it will become HAUTE COTOURE." 

"What is your relationship with fashion and why did you decide to start your own fashion blog and modeling portofolio?"

"My relationship with fashion is now quite simple. I am an insanely simplistic individual. I see clothes, look at the price tag, and if it's cheap, I buy it. In 2021 I lost a lot of weight and everyone perceived me as a model and said I should get into modeling. For years I said no because I didn't want to contribute to vanity. Which is ironic because here we are now, haha! Random people either told me I should model or assumed I already did.. Especially my sisters! But I never felt as if I belonged there. I am actually just a rebelious nerd with huge dreams and ambitions.

But then I got to comsopolitan cities and got influenced by, unfortunately negative, fashion subcultures. I bought funky clothes, shades and constantly wrecked my hair with bleach trying to look like someone else, someone alternative. I once got invited to a fashion show, for some reason, and I hated every single second of it. I felt so pretentious and shallow and for a nerd like me.. That's not my place. I need depth, revolution, rebelion and I need to feel as if I contribute something larger to the future of humanity. But I also need something shallow to not be consumed by over-intellectualizing theories and practices to create and code neurotechnological devices to cure diseases. So here we are."

"How do you define beauty in a world that constantly tries to define it?"

"Deceptive. Beauty is deceptive. Scientifically speaking when we look at our ecosystem and animal kingdom. Often times the most 'prettiest', 'beautiful' plants and animals are often times the most dangerous ones. And that's how I feel about beauty in general. We've become so obsessed with image, appearance and beauty that we lack any analytical mindset to question whether if something 'that' attractive is also healthy for us. C'mon we all once had a crush or sexually attracted to someone who tickled all our senses due to their appearance and turned out to be an absolute asshole. Why? Because we gave them the 'pretty privilege' pass. So I'm questioning pretty things instead of obsessing over it."

"But if you want to become a model then aren't you contributing to that system? Because if you model your career depends on how photogenic and attractive you are."

"Guilty. I am contributing to it as well. Can't defend that."

"To continue about appearances. You recently talked about being neurodivergent. Which seems to be a new pyschological umbrella term to adress people who fall outside the neurotypical norm. However most people have a specific image about people who are neurodivergent. Have you ever felt like people didn't take you seriously if you tell them you're on the spectrum? Are you comfortable talking about being neurodivergent?"

"Oh I love this question! Let's get deeper into this one! Short answer: YES! In 2023 I was diagnosed as neurodivergent by psychiatrists after going through some traumatic stuff. They made a psychological rapport based of an IQ test I had to do, some questions I had to answer about mental health and some other stuff. I was surprised and borderline shook when the IQ tests came out and I saw the score. 145 on the IQ test and 120 on the EQ test and I scored a high percentage on the ADHD and a lower percentage on the autism spectrum. So they diagnosed me as '2e (twice) exceptional gifted, ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder), Asperger level 1 and High Sensitivity. I was surprised that I was considered 'gifted' because my entire life I believed I was retarded and dumb. Yeah believe it or not. I struggled with tying my shoelaces, I sucked at school, had low grades and just... Yeah. But on the other hand I was called gifted by many people for my musically polymathic skills and abilities, the way I converse about things, my perceptions and insights about reality and now recently my inventions surrounding engineer, especially since I am self taught in everything. 

Do I think or believe I am highly gifted? I think and feel as if I am cursed. This has only made my life a living hell. When I read the traits and symtomps of these diagnoses I thought: 'Why did no one stepped in and helped me with all of this? Why didn't my parents asked for social assistance as for dealing with 2e exceptional children? Why didn't my parents asked for a medical or psychological revisit when I got misdiagnosed the first time?' Of course they didn't care because both of my parents are abusive narcissists. They never cared about me or my sibilings and only cared about my musical skills and how it makes them look. 

But due to that misdiagnosis with something else, I wasn't able to get the correct education, help and assistance I truly needed. And the worst thing is, and this sounds shallow, you can't look at my face and see that I am neurodivergent. The average person can't see that I am on the spectrum or have these things. And when I was a child I had multiple seizures due to sensory overstimulations and it happened multiple times that I fell down and spazzed due to being overstimulated. Multiple occasions when that happened. Yet, no one, including my parents, did nothing. That's simply put neglect and abuse. Like, recently I went somewhere and someone who saw my performance greeted me and talked about me to her colleague, complimenting me that I was like Prince (musically). And in my head I thought: 'She can't see it. She can't see that I am neurodivergent and actually need a lot of help.) You know the ironic twist in this is that being able to play twenty instruments is tied to 2e exceptional giftedness and is a result of neurodivergence. It is apparent, people only glamorize and idealize the 'good stuff' about it and then talk bullshit about you later once you're overstimulated, ask for help or lash out. I am thankful for the compliment, however often times it's either black or white. I am either the 'gifted genius' or the 'unstable, reckless, two faced, crazy nerd with behavior issues'. They never seem to notice both and its either the one or the other."

"I think that's something most people think about. I've once read something similar about gifted indivuals who also happened to be twice exceptional. And that even though they are considered gifted in many areas, they also seem to struggle with fundemental things in life and are often ignored due to the contrast of giftedness and neurodivergence. How does that relate to you?"

"You already explained it for me, haha! Couldn't have phrased it better than that. For me personally as someone who falls underneath the twice exceptional umbrella, no one sees that I fall under the spectrum. Because, there again, I don't 'look' as if I am on the neurodivergent spectrum and there is an immediate fixation on what I can do as a polymath, especially musically. They don't see that I'm neurodivergent until they see tics or when I get overstimulated. For people like me who fall underneath the 2e exceptional category, its difficult to see that we're neurodivergent AND happen to have skills that are considered 'gifted'. They don't see the epileptic seizures, stims, overstimulations, breakdowns and social conflicts we have to fight behind the scene. They only see a highly trained and curated performance. That's what it is. And I always tell people that whenever they see any of my skills that are seen as gifted, its a performance, its a show, its fake... I am highly self trained (and still practice everyday) to do all these things as a cover up for being neurodivergent. As fucked up as ot sounds. Its more about compensating for the fact I can't function normally in society rather than a 'God Given Gift'.

The contrast between my musical, artistic and technical performance and who I am is quite extreme. When I'm in my zone I can perform any song on any instrument, sing, rap, dance, paint, draw, write, build and code devices to alter the physical body to cure itself from diseases. But other than that I am always overstimulated, senses are fried, headaches, tics and struggling to even do normal things for people my age. A normal job, going out, partying, making and maintaining relationships and friendships, these things are luxuries for me while they're the norm for everyone around me. I find it unfair and its double unfair that I don't receive the help I need from social services or institutions specified for that. You're there left to rot and expected to entertain the same masses who ostracize and cast you out just because you're different. The curse of being twice exceptional is that people look at you but they don't really see you. They want everything from you. Your skills, your talents, your gifts, they want complete ownership over you as an individual until you set boundaries or they find out that you're not 'perfect'  or a 24/7  prodigy machine. That's the same reason I fell out with a lot of creative communities who claimed to stand for creative expression of the individual, but were just elitist communities with an alternative aesthetic to cover up their shady shit. 

They love what you can do, but hate the fact you're the one who can do that."

"THEY CLAIM TO LOVE YOU BUT THEY ONLY LOVE WHAT YOU CAN DO."

Despite the many challenges, Zhixiang Jeradayah managed to make massive impact onto many individuals through his work in his work in neuroengineering and neurotechnology under the name AQUARIANGOD. We wanted to dive deeper into his work in transhumanism and his "Futuristic Medicine" BUT FIRST...

"Zhixiang tell us... What are you wearing today and what's the look you wanted to serve?"

"Oh yeah the fashion! For today's shoot I decided to go casual and put on a white long sleeved shirt from Primark. I normally wear black but I decided to switch things up. On top of that I'm wearing a black Jersey from Bershka and blue Denim jeans from Primark. And I also wear my favorite black boots. I love wearing combat boots. They give an inch in height. I'm already considered tall by people but hey... hahaha!"

"What do you think is important for you to wear fashion wise and where do you get your inspiration for fashion from?"

"That its comfortable. I am sensitive to touch and either wear tight clothes so I dont even feel as if I am wearing clothes, or extremely loose clothes that makes me feel airy and liberated. I don't like anything that doesn't stretch. I always wear stretch materials because I want to have free movement in whatever I do. I am an Aquarius so freedom is extremely important for me."

"Tell us about your relationship to fashion and modeling. You mentioned never believing that you'd be a model, why?"

"My relationship with fashion is quite skewed because we all know that the fashion and beauty industry is morally corrupt. They use genetic outliers who fit inside the systemically engineered convention of beauty standards, push their features as 'the standard' and create products and services that promises that if you buy, wear and use XYZ, you'll also look and feel as... you belong somewhere. A lot of fashion industries prey onto vulnerable and marginalized individuals who aren's represented correctly. So they come in and sweep them off their feet promising them representation. But all they want is your money.  They want you to bow down and comply to their agendas. They say that they stand for individuality and uniqueness and then try to morph you into their weird standard of what 'THEY' think is 'THE STANDARD'. If you deviate from it you're immediately an outcast by default. Unless you get into extreme leftist, neoliberalistic identity politics. Where they only promote marginalized individuals for shock value and entertainment purpose to financially capitalize of your deviances.

As mentioned before, first being anorexic, heroin chick body was in and they mocked people (especially African descent people) with natural curves. And now most people are running to their plastic surgeons to get a BBL and butt implants. See how fashion standards change? I used to be insecure about my cheekbones and hair texture, yes true, I always wanted to change those features. And here we are, people getting cheekbone implants, cheek fillers, bbl's and curl their hair to look 'exotic'. And who's responsible for that? Fashion industries, beauty industries, etc. They pick and trade which ethnic feature they want to represent as their model to sell their product and run with it. They call it cultural appreciation. I call it cultural colonization.

So I was extremely surprised when I received comments on my cheekbones as I always wanted a narrow slim face. I was shocked that people found my mixed afro attractive because I have fucked up and wrecked my scalp with bleach and chemicals to look more European."

"Isn't it interesting how you always wanted to look like them and now people are getting surgeries to get features from your ethnic background?"

"That's mot interesting. That's psychologically fucked up. That means that they perceive themselves as something needed to be 'fixed' by surgeons. Actual surgeons. I have experienced multiple times where there were specific features people, especially white people, commented on and said they wanted. That is creepy and fucked up. There is no pride in that. You don't want to make people feel how these industries have always made you feel. That's morally confusing. 

I also think you shouldn't hype yourself up just because someone is envious of you. I think that's toxic and unstable. If you build your self image and self esteem based off what people think or desire from you, then you'll become unstable as people and their thoughts and emotions come and they go."

"Is that your definition of cultural appropriation? Where they glamorize and sexualize specific features associated with specific cultures. How do you look at multiculturalism and its representation?"

"Here's my truth. I am mixed so I have multiple roots. In my career with combining azonto, afrobeats and arabian ochestra and jazz, most people did like the music but couldn't necessarily categorize and market my work as its too dimensional. I dont want to be boxed or labeled other than my own label. Literally, I have my own record label, so that's the only label I accpet. Jeradayah Records. People claim to be multicultural and then vote for Trump and anti-immigration. People say they're all inclusive for all types of skins and bodies, until they can't financially profit off of you. They claim to be all inclusive for all genders and sexualities, until they can't use your identity to capitalize off of you. Everything has a literal price tag. They used to make fun of black and Asian people and their features and are now running to their surgeons to get fox eyes, bigger lips, big boobs and a fat ass. Culture is only celebrated when they can fetishize and capitalize off of your... uniqueness. The first time I played afrobeats they shamed it and thought it was weird. Now we have white people being labeled as 'Greatest DJ Of All Times'  for playing afrobeats, afrohouse, reggaeton and African diasporic music. But where are the black people who made the traditional music where it all came from? Exactly, erased. Meanwhile their essence is being sampled and copied by these 'Artists' who are mere entertainers.

They want Brazilian hair, Arabian eyebrows and eyelashes, East-Asian almond eyes, Northern European nose, African lips, West African cheekbones, African skull structure, Latin skin color, European Height, African curves and above all want to just be ethnically mixed but not that ambigious to experience literal racism and discriminative oppression most of these ethnic groups experience based off these same features. Its as if these fashion industries pick and choose a feature from this culture, a feature from this ethnicity, that ethnicity, juggle it together and ta-da!  Here's your new beauty standard. But people who have these features naturally were bullied pre-social media for having them in the first place. Its just strange."

"When we talk about beauty standards and fashion I have to think of the movie 'Uglies'. The movie where you're only accepted in higher tier elite societies if they've morphed you into the ideal beauty standard. How do you feel about the influence of the media and how it shapes culture and self image?"

"I have seen that movie and that movie is not only a visual example of lookism and pretty privilege, but its the truth about how social media makes you believe where the 'average' human being looks like XYZ and that's just not possible. The movie 'Uglies'  is the accurate future representation when we stay fixated on looks, appearances and lookism and play these social games where looks and image dictate everything. Social media confronts us with fake and curated images where algorithms push specific faces with certain features that are deemed to be desirable. We can argue that psychologically the movie 'Uglies' is already happening where our technological devices bombard our subconscious mind with curated images of the 'ideal' face and body and that in a click of a button we can hire a surgeon (legal or illegal), program or product that grants us our ideal appearances. The movie 'Uglies' represents how technology and social media can possibly ressurect Hitler's ideology about the Aryan race. But instead of white, blonde and blue eyes. They use Hitler's Aryan race theory to make people more racially ambigious due to cultural fetihsization and cultural appropriation disguised as representation. 

I also have a wild theory that we're entering the age of genetic engineering where white people hunt down and experiment on African people to harvest their genes due to its rich nature. Yes, I am a huge conspiracy theorist. And I believe that that they're using Africans as a genetic test subject and harvest their genes to alter their own off spring to have enhanced features. Its scientifically known that African genes are proven to be more superior than Caucasian genetics. The average African male is more muscular, stronger, faster, leaner and endowed than their Caucasian opposite. So of course if we talk about human physical evolution they're going to harvest African genes and genetic expressions to epigenetically enhance themselves. So that movie Uglies will become a reality soon."

"YOU DON'T WANT TO BE LOOKED AT, YOU ALSO WANT TO BE SEEN."

"To go a little deeper into your neurodivergency. What does it feel like to be neurodivergent, highly gifted, autistic and have ADHD? I feel as if there are still misconceptions about neurodivergent people due to the majority of human population being neurotypical. We don't really understand neurodivergence and the struggles that come with it. What are your experiences being neurodivergent in a neurotypical world?"

"I don't blame people for not understanding neurodivergent individuals as it's literally a less than 5% in a million case. When are you neurodivergent? When are you just eccentric? When are you weird? And most importantly how do you live with it if it affects your everyday life? You cannot escape your brain and nervous system. Its not just psychological, its mostly neurological. I think that's the first difference between a mental illness and a neurological divergence. When we talk about neurodivergence we equate them to mentally incompotent individuals who aren't able to do anything functional and that's far from the truth. That's why I personally believe we shouldn't put people who are anxious or depressed under neurodivergence. Because anxiety and depression are the result of something that acts out in the psychological realm and can be cured. You're not doomed to be depressed or anxious forever as its more psychological than neurological. They may be close but there is still a huge difference. 

You can cure anxiety and depression. But curing autism or ADHD is quite controversial as things like ADHD, autism, aspergers, Sensory Processing Disorders, giftedness and especially 2e exceptionals are extremely complex cases and spectrums. I don't perceive giftedness as something superior above other neurological conditions as, in my experiences, it only brings more problems and complications than an actual 'gift'. Yes talents and gifts are cool, yeah sure. But its a hell to have a mind like this and the sheer existential pressure that comes from your brain being physically wired differntly to process the external world differently. Your sensory perceptors are literally wired differently, physically. So I won't categorize giftedness as a literal gift but more of a 2e exceptional case. Because with gifts come difficulties as well. We can argue that you're twice exceptional the moment you notice or have been diagnosed with giftedness. Because it often comes with extreme burdens of social isolation, social ostracization and overstimulation. I just happen to pick the wrong card and my 2e exceptionality resulted in seizures.

So what it actually feels like? Imagine taking DMT and your vision, sense of smell, taste, hearing and sensing are turned on 300% every single nano second of the day. You experience this physical reality as if you're always in a hyper realistic simulation that enhances all of your senses 24/7. But your mind constantly races with random yet extreme ideas, feelings, emotions that right away trigger your nervous system. You always feel extremely detached as if you're the observer of reality and you always question reality around you. You constantly feel alienated and ostracized because no one experiences what you sense, think, perceive and experience internally. You have the craziest imagination with the most futuritsic and philosophical ideas that makes you further ahead than your peers. You excel in many things if you're interested but absolutely suck at things you don't care about. You're always twitching, shaking, bouncing due to being hyperactive. You cry, laugh, scream, easily due to intense emotions and emptathy. You can suddenly do things you've never done before due to extreme pattern recognition so you're perceived as talented. Whilst simultameously struggling with sensory overload and can get a meltdown, breakdown or even a seizure when overstimulated. People think you should be smart, and for most mildly gifted that's the case, but the higher you get in giftedness the more you experience asynchronous development. So you might be able to speak twenty languages but can't tie your shoes and get meltdowns like a child. That's where you get into 2e giftedness (twice exceptionally gifted). Where giftedness comes with underdevelopment in another era of the brain. So you're a genius in one or multiple eras and often times a complete retard in mundane things (sorry it sucks but its true).

Yet the ironic situation is that I used to suck at academics. Most adults didn't perceive the gifted part of me, only the neurodivergent side of me and tried to 'treat' me with medication. Meanwhile I should've gotten the propper education and help for my overexcitibilities. Especially for having seizures. However people either see the 'gifted' side and try to fetishize your gifts and talents into some brand or archetype, or they only see your divergence and disabilities and treat you as if you're stupid and defective. And that's the perspective no one sees. How the narrative around being twice exceptional can constantly change on how people perceive you. How many times haven't I experienced where people eventually get disappointed when they figure out I'm neurodivergent after seeing me perform. Then treat me as if I betrayed them or some sorts. Meanwhile both sides coexists together. You're excellent in a few domains and struggle with the most basic things on the other hand. To the point where even I doubt whether I'm truly gifted because what the actual fuck, why can't I concentrate or tie my shoelaces??

"I can imagine what you're going through and I can also imagine how difficult it must be to be looked at in one domain, yet not fully seen on the other hand.  How do you think culture and society play into the role of the perception of neurodivergence and giftedness?"

"Culture shapes the people. Media shapes the mind. He who controls the media controls the minds of the people. And how culture represents giftedness is either these two things. You're either an academically gifted student or the borderline psychotic genius who walks a fine line between genius and madness. And that's simply not true! Neurodivergency is such a complex terrirtory as our brains aren't as simple as it looks. Giftedness and neurodivergence isn't  some socio-political debate where you're either left or right. Which is also a limited perspective, as politically, left wing or right wing its the same bird  and that bird is going downhill as of 2025. Its not Giftedness versus neurodivergence, no. Giftedness IS a part of neurodivergence. And we need to accept the fact that twice exceptionality exists and is way more common than we realize. Unfortunately twice exceptional people aren't seen for their gifts and are misdiagnosed, miseducated and wrongfully medicated for something they actually DON'T have. And due to all that pressure can lead to serious dangerous things such as; criminality, drug abuse, violence, depression and eventually even... Suicide. And yet no one speaks up about these individuals. Because they're the lost gifted children who needed help and only got ostracized for their divergence and were left alone to their fate.

No one actually knows what its like to be twice exceptional. And because parents don't know about twice exceptionality, they misdiagnose their children with something they don't have and fully neglect their advanced abilities and gifts.  And their children are labeled by their education system as 'difficult' and or 'problematic' due to attention seeking behavior due to neglect. So here we have gifted children, teenagers, adolescents who didn't receive the propper education and assistance to deal with their twice exceptionality and then they grow up to be confused young adults with thei childhood being one gigantic blur. Where on one hand they were perceived as 'special' or 'different' and on the other hand are perceived as problematic and disruptive. Because they're simply misplaced in places where they don't belong." 

"And you're speaking from experiences. What could you advice to other adults who have to deal with these twice exceptional children on the daily? Such as teachers, parents and caregivers. What advice could you give to them who deal with neurodivergent gifted youngsters?"

"LISTEN TO YOUR CHILD! Simple as that. Children, teenagers and young adults literally tell you what it is. And you can see it from the get go. However many adults and caregivers are simply trained to ignore these things and force and manipulate their children to be as neurotypical and average as possible. And that's where behavioral problems arise and their gifts are perceived as curses and defects due to the wrong environmental forces. A gifted child has exceptional musical skills, but due to overexcitibilities and hypersensitivity to sound they can't concentrate on their corriculum tasks, therefor get bad grades. Not because they have an intellectual defect, but because they're overstimulated and can't concentrate on their tasks. A gifted child might be incredibly advanced in mathematics but shows difficulties with speech and linguistics meanwhile their mathematic skills could be the level of someone who studied astrophysics. A gifted child could be a creative polymathic genius but due to asynchronous development, they might be advanced in different domains but are socially underdeveloped due to one side being further developed than the other. And that phenomenon simply causes cognitive dissonance between narratives. Its not only confusing for the adults responsible for the youth. Its also confusing for these individuals themselves. And that can cause major problems to their self image, self esteem and over concept of themselves.

So my advice is to watch their children. Watch what they watch, watch what they read, what they create, what they follow, ask them questions about many things and see how they think about specific topics, watch their talents, observe the way they react to external stimuli. And if you notice there is asynchronous development where they might be extremely advanced in one domain and completely struggle in other domains, that's a tell tale sign of twice exceptional giftedness. Especially when its paired with them being highly sensitive and react to external stimuli intensely, that's a major sign of twice exceptionality. Not being able to get along with peers and seem to be 'wise beyond their years' MAJOR SIGN. When teachers try to diagnose them with labels due to their 'problematic nature' yet your child shows little to no characteristics of that label, then its likely 2e exceptionality. I understand why it can be difficult to spot twice exceptionals, however its also about the intention and motivation whether parents and adults dealing with children even are interested in this or care about chilldren at all.  

Many twice exceptional gifted young people may struggle with the standard education system due to being provicient in a few domains and completely struggle with other domains. Or they're simply overstimulated, can't concentrate and even worse that actually influences their development, can't get along with their peers and miss out typical age related activities and developmental factors. Such as sexuality, dating, friendship, peer relatability and such. This causes them to be emotionally and socially underdeveloped. And that has major impact in their later adult life due to not having build the mental fortitude to deal with social conflicts, setbacks or social dynamics. And this gets often read as 'Autism' due to them not following the neurotypical  social hierarchical narratives and roles. Its an extremely complex situation and pattern rooted in both neuropsychological brain development and general society."

"Thank you for sharing your experiences, insights and stories about being neurodivergent, culture and beauty standards. Lastly, do you have any advice for other twice exceptional polymaths out there who struggle with neurodivergence, culture and not being able to fit into mainstream society?"

"I talked about it with my third sister and she said that everyone has complications in their lives. What sets them apart is that they own who they are. They own their flaws, divergences and uniqueness. My advice would be simple as 'Know yourself, see yourself and understand yourself.' Stop trying to fit inside the conventional narratives. Stop trying to be someone you're not. Stop trying to be like other people. Stop trying to diminish yourself and your abilities to make other people feel comfortable about you. Instead, accept yourself, your gifts and flaws as what they are. Accept how you look, how you act, talk, speak, move, think, feel and act and be the best version of YOURSELF, not somebody else. Completely own who you are, your entire being and thrive. Create systems that work for yourself. Only surround yourself with people who understand and respect you and stay away from people who perceive you as a mutant, a weirdo, a spectacle or something inhuman.

And if you need someone to talk to you can reach to me on instagram, X, Tiktok and YouTube on @Jeradayah or send an email to: Jeradayah@gmail.com."

"Thank you for the interview."